but I die, without you.

lovesong07 @ 2007-08-05T11:52:00

2007-08-05T15:52:28Z

ok, bye lj. its been fun.

i think im over lj

2007-06-29T17:08:51Z

grad party was AMAZING!!!
thanks to everyone who made it extra special!!
i'm going to be mature and not mention anything else.
it was soo great though! the whole day! everything!!
i got a freakin promise ring! omg i cried! ITS GORGEOUUSSS!!!!

UP NORTH WITH KATE.. SUNDAY!!!!!!
DAYTONA & ORLANDO.. JULY 20TH!!!!

everything is good.

2007-06-20T21:21:40Z

summer is going amazingly well. =]
it'll be a great one, i can tell.

grad party's sunday.. goin nuts!!
i expect to see everyone there 6-?

i love michael rousseau more than anything.
and my friends.
and my sharp cousins.

less than a month is Daytona & Orlando with the Sharp's!!! :):)

i'm pumped. =]

!!!!!!

2007-06-08T20:19:47Z

i'm loving everything about summer.
everything.
my friends. my boy. everything.
=]=]=]=]=]=]=]!!!!

everything is amazing.

:)

2007-06-05T03:21:54Z

graduation was incredible.
the most amazing yet numb feeling ever.
and best of all..
i got to be right next to my future roommate.
symbolic, yep.
and my bff since baby time, taylor. :)
i was a happy camper.
my whole family was there + mike.
amazing. my goddaughter brielle wandered to me
just to say hi and i love you.
i cried.

the family came over after for lunch and fun.
mike stayed all day and let me sleep so i could be awake all night.

ALL NIGHT PARTY WAS FREAKIN AMAZING.
tatoos. cool drawings. tarot card readers.
mechanical bulls. music videos. rat race.
bungee thing. hair salon. food. food. food.
hypnotist!! i was soo tired i went under for a little.
it was weird and i came out of it quick but w.e it was fun.
BEST HYPNOTIZED PERSON: VICKIE. :) haha <3you girl!
i really like people who fake hypnotism, first off, everyone can tell.
fakerssssss. lamee!!
after the party was fun too :)
then i came home and slept all sunday.
then i went to alainas bday party with mike. :):)

ITS SUMMER.
AND I'M A GRADUATE.
WEIRD.
WEIRD.
STRANGE.
COOL.
WEIRD.

AND I LOVE MICHAEL ROUSSEAU WITH EVERYTHING IN ME.
I'M SOOO FREAKIN HAPPYY!!!

oh man.

2007-06-01T04:28:50Z

it's over.
high school is over.
are you freaking kidding me?!
this is insane.
i dont even know what to do with myself.
i dont even know what to feel.
its bittersweet.
the thought of graduating makes me smile and cry,
at the same time.
kyle asked if i was worried about keeping in touch with my friends next year and i almost cried.
this is crazy.
its already summer vacation for us!!
its crazzyyyyyyyy.
i dont know what to say really.
i'll have more to say after saturday.
when my diploma is in my hand.
wow.

i spent today with literally everyone.
stuco ladies :)
kaitlin and ange :)
the junior boys :)
mike :) <3<3

i'm seriously going to miss the junior boys
more than ANY of the senior boys.
its sad...i love those boys.

me and kg had some good talks tonight :)

iloveyoumike<3

smile.

2007-05-23T23:00:23Z

everything is good. :)

seniors have FOUR school days left.
I N S A N E ! ! !
that doesnt even feel right, not at all.
i'm so scared to go.
but i'm SO excited to graduate!!
and then the all night party!!
and the about 5 bazillion parties!!
and then SUMMEERRRRR FINALLY!
god, im soo excited for summer.

i am so in love.
it just hit me harder than EVER before.
next tuesday is 10 months! wow.
i've never felt this way before, and i love it.

i think i'm getting a lost friendship back.
and it makes me very happy.
i missed it a lot.
and it was corrupted by jealousy, stupid
fourth-grade girl dirty looks, and boys.
so thats a good thing.

i'm happy.
i'm so happy.
i love life.
i love everything.
bring me to may 30th now!

:):)

2007-05-11T19:26:54Z

after 3 months.............it's FINALLY over!!!!
not many of you people know what i'm talking about.
its fine though.

and to celebrate...
goin out with my BOYFRIENDDD!!!!!! tonght :):)

lovesong07 @ 2007-05-07T17:29:00

2007-05-07T21:37:51Z

i havent had a real update on this in a loonng time.
so here goes nothing.

cabaret was great!
i love every minute of performing,
its the most incredible rush ever.
sad that i'm almost all done with it forever.
2 concerts left. then goodbye.

williamsburg was pretty fantastic!!
(even though FL will NEVER be beat)
got a lot closer with some people, which was nice.
some other people were pretty lame.
falling water was sweet, as was busch gardens!
monticello and colonial williamsburg,
yeah not my cup of tea, sorry.
i'd rather enjoy these trips having fun
not learning about the colonial times.

i really could care less what other guys think of me
so thats cool i guess.
i have a boyfriend who loves me more than anyone else could
even with my many imperfections, but yet still thinks im perfect.

PROM WAS FREAKING AMAZING!!!
every minute of it. everything.
everything worked out:
the hair, jewelry, dress, makeup,
pictures, limo, group, dance, dinner,
post-prom plans, everything was perfect.
mike was amazing and prom definately
would not have been the same without him.
he even brought me flowers!!! :):)
so lets just say... i was a VERY happy girl.
hahahaha ;);)

14 days of school left
(counting senior skip days)
cause come on, who goes to school??
and i am SO ready to be done.
i have ZERO motivation for anything
i just want may 30 to come.
then june 2nd.
then SUMMERRR!!!
god i want summer.

1 reason i cant wait to get out of here:
i'll never have to see/talk to anyone i dont care for ever again. :)

i love you mike...<3

PROM!!!

2007-05-06T01:27:28Z

THE MOST GORGEOUS CORSAGE EVER!

sarah & paul, amanda & phil, me & mike, lauren & mike, angela & danny.

my amazing boyfriend brought me my favorite flowers too!

our sweet limo driver, jimmy (who is BFF with my grandpa), took us to the marina for pictures. how cute :)

god, i love my boyfriend. <3

yeah i know, my boyfriends gorgeous.

K BYE!

best prom ever.
now lets graduate!!!

oh hell yea.

2007-05-01T18:56:47Z

FUCKIN SWEEP IN WILLIAMSBURG!
HELL YEA 7 TROPHIES!
I <3 ALL FRASER SINGERS!!! :):)

PROM = 3 DAYS!
LAST DAY OF SCHOOL = 17 DAYS!
GRADUATION = JUNE 2ND!

disregard.

2007-04-22T15:21:15Z

friday night was about the worst night of my life.
i was at at an all time low.
this whole fraser singers trip is just what i need.
i need to do something for myself or a change,
and actually enjoy something for real.
then i get back, and its PROM time.
which will be good.
overnight party duuhh :):)

and soon after that....
this should all be over.
its lasted 3 months, it should end.
the day it does, you will all know.
not many people know what im talking about
but everyone will know its over.

god i love my boyfriend. :)<3

lovesong07 @ 2007-04-20T20:07:00

2007-04-21T00:09:03Z

i am so fucking sick of this.
i want to leave now.

i cant fucking take this shit.
i cant. i cant. i cant.

just when i get happy, it has to be ripped away.
i guess im not supposed to be happy.
apparently not.
oh well, why even try.

i just want to be done with everything.

i love you..

birthday weekend begins!

2007-04-13T04:20:45Z

tomorrow night im celebrating my bday with mike! <3 i'm pretty much excited.
then saturday is my family party! :) i'm gettin good stuff, so YAY!
then tuesday I TURN 18!!! :):):)

wow.

2007-04-09T02:21:46Z

last night was incredible.
even though i had terrible cramps,
i had an amazing boyfriend who took care of me.
he got me water, a heating pad, medicine, and lots of chocolate.
:):):)<3<3<3
he scratched my arms/back and gave me an amazing massage.
and didnt argue when i said i wanted to watch legally blonde, mean girls, and charlies angels because they were all on tv in a row.
incredible.
he let me sleep on his chest and whispered he loved me in my ear just as i fell asleep.
im sorry, you probably dont care, but i dont care if you care.
im in love.
:)
everything will work.
we're about to make it through all of this,
which means we'll make it through anything.

my birthday is next tuesday, the 17th.
this friday he's taking me out "somewhere."
i have no idea what he's doing, but i cant wait.
then saturday is my family party! :) (red ipod+coach purse&wallet!) haha

cabaret is the 21&22. I'M PUMPED!
i've waited soooo long to perform like this again.
i forgot how much i loved and missed it.

then the 24th, we leave for williamsburg.
i have no idea what that will be like.
Busch Gardens will rock, that i know.
whatever drama there is, i have Kim no matter what. :)

MAY 4 = PARTY TIME!!!
prom is FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY 127% (as amanda said) set!!!!
EVERYTHING!
i couldnt have asked for a better date or group.
all of my best friends in one group.
i'm a lucky girl. :)

angela has called me twice and texted me a bunch since she's been gone.
thats a true friend. :)
shes at mrytle beach, and still wants to talk to me.
love love love.

oh by the way...... i love michael dominic rousseau more than anything else in this entire universe. <3<3

byebye!!

lovesong07 @ 2007-03-31T19:29:00

2007-03-31T23:29:53Z

fuck you. fuck life.
fuck fuck fuck fuck.
aioghioashioah iogahijgda

i want to leave.
i cant fucking take this.

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nhgaio fdhioahfo ihaoihfiga
dkavhj ioa aidoafjiogjd ijdapoi

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jpj poajopfdjvad
iogajgiofdgjgrjajajajaahhh!!!

lovesong07 @ 2007-03-25T11:55:00

2007-03-25T15:56:37Z

the notebook is amazing.
i watched it last night.. and cried.
man it feels good to be in love like that.
:)
i'm happy. 100% happy.
i love life.
i love my friends.
i love my boyfriend.
i love everything.

lovesong07 @ 2007-03-14T10:58:00

2007-03-14T14:59:13Z

and you wonder why the only person i really wanna hang out with is my boyfriend.

ok.

2007-03-05T20:02:06Z

first off, there is no break up in the near future, or future at all if its up to me.

yeah, this sucks, but i'll do anything for him.

dont ask me again.
kbye

hi

2007-03-03T18:07:44Z

i dont know what to do.

love,
me

ahg oiahroigah oghao hfd

2007-02-28T20:46:34Z

i'm on the verge.

please please please please please please please please please please please
please please please please please please please please please end soon.

i dont know how much longer i can handle this.

my baby is 17 today!

2007-02-26T22:24:11Z

and you are a fucking rediculous whore bitch.
that is all.
honestly though, i just think its so funny
as to what lengths youll go to to get
attention youll never get.
whatever slut.
i bet you cant wait till next year.
just try. i dare you.

anywayss..
its been 2 weeks.
this week will be 3.
i've cried more in these past weeks
than like graduation last year.
you know what though,
as much as this all sucked majorly,
it was 1/2 a blessing.
we can make it through anything now.
next year, psh, itll be a freakin breeze.
hopefully matt keeps dating this wayne state girl
cause then i'll most likely be home every other weekend to every.
and mike will come see me. he will.
as much as i say that and people laugh
and say uhh yeah right,
he will. because of all of this,
i know he will.
its his birthday today and ive never seen him happier.
i like to think i helped with that
and im only saying it because hes told me about a million times
that i made this the best birthday he's ever had.
sorry guys. i'm in love. :)

this thursday is my last basketball game ever. kinda sad. kinda exciting.
its my last time ever dancing in the gym.
i kinda just blew past my last time dancing on the field,
i guess cause i still had a whole season of dances.
but this is for real.
its the senior dance.
its OUR senior dance.
and its our last dance.
weird. pretty freakin weird.
as excited i am to hang up the RDT towel and move on,
im so scared, and nervous to say goodbye to that.
to say goodbye to dance is like saying goodbye to one of my parents.
its something ive known my whole entire life, since i was a little 2 year old in pre-ballet at thats dancing with taylor.
it'll be weird.
to end the season and not have it start up again in may.
its the juniors turn to take over.
they'll be seniors next year? that is just WEIRD. and i feel old.

all i can hope is that everything works out for the best.
or that everything we all want works out.
and that i stay happy.
and in love.

wow.

overwhelming.

2007-02-18T06:00:46Z

this is the hardest test i have ever had to endure.
harder than the ACT's.
harder than the exams all 4 years combined.

but this test will be passed,
with flying colors.
sometimes i wish everything was easy for me
but then i look at those people
who have everything handed to them
and who's lives are easy breezy,
and i would never want to be them.
they have no idea what strength is.
they have no idea what courage is.
they have no idea what pain is.
they have no idea what love is.
and they will never know until something like this happens.

everything is tested.
every night crying.
why? how? no answers.
people think im not ok, well, they were right
for a little while, and sometimes still,
i'm not okay. and won't be until this test is over.
but in a way, we're all not ok.
and we all never will be ok.
but in the midst of this not being ok, we meet someone
who makes every problem, bad day, and unbelievably hard test, okay.
and so much easier.
you can somehow face every day with a smile.
and start every morning with a kiss, with tounge.

this test was unexpected, unfair, and wrong.
none of us will know why it happened exactly.
but i know one thing for sure.
because of this, we know that when we say "forever" we mean until we die.
this will pass this test and last forever.
never doubt it.
no one really means forever until they can endure this and still love.
and still believe in love.
i believe. i believe in us. i believe in love.
so next time you think, we're breaking up, don't ask me.
because i'll laugh at you.
because of this 'test' we will last forever.
and no skanky girl, or douchebag guy, or any other test will come between us.

come august, we will be faced with another test, a much much harder one.
but that one will be a breeze, because we were prepared.
we know we can handle that.
we can handle anything.

forever.

i love you mike. <3

ps. dont ask.

SNOBALL!

2007-02-05T18:36:04Z

you laugh until you cry, you cry until you laugh, and everyone must breathe until their dying breath

2007-02-04T15:36:30Z

snoball was amazing.
i love you so much, michael rousseau!
<33333

pics later.